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It has been one of those really long but really nice days. Started the day with going to Filipstad with my mum, we went all the way there to go have coffee at the little bakery, and bought loads of bread with us.. It really is worth it to start the day in a nice way, because it just gives you, well at least me energy through the whole day.

After that I've been working on a PR campaign for one of my brothers companies until I went to get my nephew from kindergarden.

For the first time I went alone, and was slightly scared they wouldn't let me take him with me, as there was another girl who i never met before working. But she trusted me when I told her I was his aunty, not sure if that was a good thing or bad thing, because I could have been anyone kidnapping him...

It was way harder to find the right trolley, and get the clothes on him though.. hehe I'll be such a great mum will take me like an hour everytime I wanna put some clothes on my children.. Maybe it's good that I can train a bit with my nephew.. At least he was super cute and didn't cry at all, all the way back home, not even when I was feeding him.. He was so good, ate almost everything.. I bet I won't get such an obidiant child. My future children will most certainly be those types of kids that drive you absolutely crazy, the type that cry in airplanes, throw the food around when you try to feed them, and always poop when it's über-unconvinient.. Lol maybe all that is normal for babies, and I'm just not used to handling them, but I really think my nephew is just too perfect to be true..

Now i'm gonna go back and play more with him, or maybe put some music on, as he loves to dance to guess what.. BBC1xtra., He even has good taste in music!!

And I to walk all the way to the shop I get some fresh air and that in itself is way good for me too.. hihi I need to sort myself out, no need to try to convince myself that I won't go get some sweets because we all know I will.. But hey, maybe I decide to buy some healthy ones.. haha or not..

peace out

Shit just ate all the sweets i got.. feel like puking.. i think something is really wrong with me.. Everytime I buy loads of sweets i somehow imagine that I can save them for a couple of days, but eat them all at ones.. I don't even chew, just push them all down.. Wonder if i'm one of those people who eat when they are down.. Or happy.. Just all the time..

Been hanging out with my brother and sister in law, and playing with the baby.. Leon must be the smartest 1,5 year old ever.. I mean he really understand when you speak to him!! Not like i know any other babies that age, but I really don't think it's normal to be like he is.. Guess we have genius genes in the family :)

The other day a friend was driving in a rally so we went there to have a look, and to support, but OMG that was so cold, sitting outside in the snow for hours, and because we all forgot money we couldn't even really buy any food, lol we only had enough for 2 burgers, a coke and 2 coffees.. haha we were 4 people.. so we had to share.. but as everyone knows sharing is caring.. Lol

Reminds me of a song my friend used to sing, something about... Om du har ett äpple ska du dela det med mig.. haha don't even remember the rest, but i do know she probs never thought about apples but must have been meaning sweets or something else..

Now I have to go back to applying for more jobs, gonna try to apply for at least 10 jobs every day, and have to hurry a bit now, coz I need to go to my mum and dads for lunch soon..

This was the last time I went to my mum and dads, a couple of days ago... So much fun to drive these.. I wish I had a drivers licens so i could drive outside our premises as well..

Just translated my CV into swedish, and will be sending it out, but will continue sending it to companies abroad as well.. It's time for me to grow up, and get a propper job..

Back to more fun matters, oh well, at least more typical matters.. Almost missed my flight to Stockholm.. haha took the coach to Heathrow at 4 am, and once on the coach i realized that i was flying from Ldn central airport, not from Heathrow, so tried to get from Heathrow to LDN C airport between 6:30 am and 9 am.. Haha JOKES!! With all the morning traffic being absolutely crazy, and me in the middle of it all with all my luggage, at some point I was standing in a tube station close to tears.. But I could hold them back, well till I got to the airport 9 minutes before my flight was due to leave. At that point I was def playing the crying card, and it helped, and as the plane was a bit late they actually let me on it. Am I proud of my behaviour? naaaaa, would I do it again, to catch a flight? Hell yeaaa!! Who wouldn't?

At Arlanda I had to wait for an hour to get picked up, and as being bored wrote a bit about my "love" for sweats.. ah maybe I should call it addiction? Now when I read this it doesn't sound normal.. haha

Are the makers of sweats serious when they put down the calorie for each portion amount?

Am stuck at Stockholm airport, so the only thing really to do it, eat loads of sweats and read a book. As I haven’t been in Sweden I went for a classic, Bilar. Now for all you that don’t know what these wonderful little cars are, you’re loosing out in life. Absolutely love them, and I love that they now do the liquorice ones in salt as well. Gives me more options J

However, as being slightly, or well very much bored, I started reading the calorie amounts in the bad. Which I think is a real good thing to put on the packaging, because than people like me can at least attempt to stick to the healthy calorie daily intake.

There is just one thing I don’t understand.. Why do they always on swears packages write the calories for 25 g and 100 g. I guess with the 100 g, it’s good because you can easily compare it with other nutritious food groups :p

But the always say a portion is 25 g, which makes me wonder, do other people just eat like ¼ of the sweats, and then feel full?

Same when you buy ready meals, which are meant to be two portions.  Am I the only person that opens food, and eats the whole thing, doesn’t matter what it is. Sweats, frozen meals, veg, fruit. For example I would never be able to buy a pineapple, a melon, or just grapes without eating the whole thing at once. Even though many of these are god-knows how many portions.

Am I the only person that does that, because if yes, it makes me feel as if I have absolutely no self-discipline. Who is it that decides how much 1 portion is? Because he defiantly hasn’t met my family, or to be honest most people I know eat if not as much as me, still way more than just “1 portion”. Which let’s be honest is a joke.

I really hope people who are reading this don’t just think I’m a fatty now, coz whilst writing this I just at “5 portions” of sweats, with other words, what five people would eat.. And trust me there is space for more, or maybe some McDonalds, or a MAX burger. Which I’m not even going to get started on. Let’s just say, there is no burger place which can even be close to being compared to MAX..

That must be the stupidest thing I have ever heard of. I mean don't people know?! Is this how far people go to make cheap television? Feels like it is a mockery to all gay people. To all the people that know what they like. I mean I have never been with a woman, and do not feel the need to be either. Should I try hooking up with a girl just to make sure I'm not gay..? I think I would know to be honest.. There is no need for me to check if the grass is greener on the other side of the fence or however one might call it..

Must say this specific show was one of the crappiest things I have ever seen on tv.. Maybe the show is usually better, I don't know, and I do not want to find out either..

By the way maybe I should mention that in the end of that experiment everyone ended up liking guys, like before.. Surprise Surprise..!

Does it really make me a better person if I go to church or is it just something I feel because it has been printed into my brain in Catholic school? I don't know..

But I do know that most people I know, who are the kindest people ever do ever go to church, some don't even believe in God. Some people I know which go to church and always talk about their belief are some of the not so "good" people.. So why do I feel like going to church will make me a better person, doesn't make sense.

Maybe I should say here, that I don't usually go to church coz it makes me feel like a "better person", i'm way too lazy for that :p I go because I love it, and because it calms me down..

peace out now..

I have gotten some NY resolutions, and will try to hold all of them.. Well at least for as long as possible, if I put them on here, the chance is bigger that I will remember them I think.. Hopefully..

Well numer one: Take more risks.. (I suck at taking risks, to be able to enjoy life fully I have to start taking more risks!)

Number two: Eat salad at least three days every week. Been already good with doing that, and I know it's just been one week, but today is the first day I haven't had salad for dinner. So just have to keep the good work up..

Number three: Be less bitchy.. Yea I know, some people might think i'm not really bitchy, but the thing is I seem quite bitchy to other people specially watching telly and stuff like that. I'm like a private bitchy commentator, commenting on everything that happens.. Well i'm gonna try to stop doing that..

Number four:Be better with money, I know that is like everyones NY-resolution, but I really need to become better taking care of my finances, and I really will, can't be spending too much money if I don't have a real ful-time job.. So with other words, no more unnecessary spendings!

I had six resolutions, but cannot for my life remember the other two, which is bad because I only made them the other day, how can I already have forgotten two of them, I should have written them down straight away..

Will try to remember the other two, and put them on here as well, if I ever remember them..

By the way, I got a new purse today, it is so lovely, it's in sale in Karen Millen, so I got  it as a lil Xmas present to myself :)

Doesn't seem like I can upload a picture of it.. I will soon though looks too nice, to not show it of ;)

Haha i know I don't look very happy.. I somehow always look like I want to kill the person taking the picture.. Weird, even when I try to smile, I end up looking like this..

It has been so busy though at work, which makes me realize, I'm def. not a last minute kind of person compared to everyone else.. Looks like I play everything safe, even the christmas shopping.

I had this discussion with Lisa the other day, girls like me and her, always play everything safe, does that mean we miss out on fun? I mean obviously not when it comes to buying christmas gifts the last possible day, but other things.

For example, every day Lisa parks in this parking house close to work, and every day she has to drive down a couple of floors, and than in the evening, when the park-house is empty, she always drives the long way out, even though the short way would literally take one second to drive up, she always drives round after round through the whole place to get back up..

I told her she should do the naughty thing and just drive up.. Do what pretty much everyone else would do. But she can't, she is too much of a good girl.. To be honest, i'm all talk myself, I wish I could do the "wrong thing" every now and then, but I can't.. It would feel so incredibly wrong, and probably feel guilty until I confess to the security people or something..

I bet people who don't play everything safe have more fun, but in the end of the day, we all choose what we do and how we act. So I can't blame being boring on a characteristic, it is just who I choose to be :)

Just went into my mums website and saw she put some real nice pictures on there..

She has become so good at taking pictures, this really shows the beauty of a Swedish Winter..

Gonna take a break now and go town to buy some shoes I can wear on my job interview.. Am so nervous but guess there is nothing much I can do.. Will try to be prepared as much as possible, but I guess it's mostly about how well the whole first impression CRAP goes.. I hate that. I mean my CV is so good on paper, and I know I could do such a good job, but I suck at first impressions. I get nervous and shy, and hardly speak, and when I speak I forget what I was saying half way through, so I try to say as little as possible. But not talking makes people think you are stuck up, so that doesn't work either. I wish there was a way to get a job without having to go to interviews. Specially coz it's in the morning, how will I find my way there in the morning, and have to get back to Southampton in time to go to work here..

Yeah tuesday will equal to Stress-Day!

Had a really nice saturday night yesterday, as usual I didn't go out.. (Yes I know I'm fully aware that i'm extremely boring, not to go out on a Sat-night.. But WHATEVA!) Well me and my housemate stayed at home and had a couple of cocktails and smoked some sheesha, and watched movies, was such a cozy night.. Felt a bit like the whole last year. That was sort of the only thing we did last year.. I miss Uni days, when there was a meaning with life, some sort of order, somewhere to be every day, and something to do.. I don't think students have the slightest clue how good they have it, how fun studying actually is compared to real life..

Well i'm off now, still have to keep cleaning :)

Peace out!

I remember when I just started college, everyone was reading Dostojevski (can't believe I just spelled his name right in the first try.. Impressed by myself!) At the time I felt stupid because I hadn't read anything by him, and now I have three different books by him, two of which are over a hundred years old.. Yeah I love old smelly books.. But to be honest I haven't finished a single one of them.. But to be serious, I got these books mostly because I could not have other people be more intelectual than me.. This is weird, because I don't usually feel intimidated by people, specially not when it comes to things like literature, I love reading, always have, so I have read a lot of books. I also have seen a lot of movies, documentaries, I read the news, and magazines (I did study Journalism and Media..) So why do I feel intimidated by people who read one book I haven't?

But the bigger question is: Why do I feel like I have to defend myself, for loving Misfits and other equal television series (could True blood be any better?!). Well here it is, I love Misfits, True Blood, Sex and the City, Friends, Fresh prince. I also love stupid romantic comedies, in which you know in the first five minutes who will end up with who, and so on. Does this make me a stupid girl, who just likes girly un-intelligent stuff? Well who is anyone to judge me, as we all have our stupid guilty pleasure.. We all do something that we are not proud of. I know admitting to watching these sort of tv shows and movies might not be a big deal for some, but for someone who has studied journalism and media, I should know better, and like some watch intelligent telly that will make me brighter and not dumber.. But seriously, who gives a s##t?!

Peace out for today..