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Some idiot left his phone on in the study room next to mine and left, it's been going on like 10 times now.. Why are people so brainless?? Never mind, just printed out 70 pages.. thats how big my dissertation is so far.. Gonna keep writing now.. hopefully gonna get my whole analysis done by tomorrow :)
Here they are..
Promised i would upload some of the pics from the other night.. i must say i am extremely happy we didn't take that many pics, coz we all look a bit special.. But never mind, u guys want the pics here they are..
This is what a girls night looks for us.. well at least how it starts.. Like normal nights more, coz there are never many girls in our girl nights, which actually can be nice too.. this was a nice night.. until i went home early of course coz i'm used to go bed at 8.. And it's not too much fun to be out with a drunken bunch if u don't drink urself..
No church this sunday..
I know i know i should go, but just really stressing out about uni work, as usual u might think.. But normally i manage to just get the words down, at the moment, it feels like i'm just deleting words, ok it doesn't just feel like that, but that is actually what i happening.. Just making changes in what i have done, and not really writing anything, so no nottinghill carnival for me tomorrow.. maybe next year :( Maybe i can try to go london next week when everything is done, and see everyone :( When this week is over, i will become someone fun again who writes fun stuff here, which makes people actually want to read this.. or not, i don't really care :p
Trying to update bbm on my phone, how come my blackberry is a bit of a dickhead when it comes do doing things i want him to do? Well hopefully he will get in a better mood soon, n listen to me :)
I'm back to my studies now.. peace out..
I know i know..
I am fully aware of the fact that i have been really bad at updating this for a while, and when i have it's been boring updates as hell, like me just studying or being ill.. But u know what, that's just the way it is at the moment, and will be for one more week.. Gonna hand in my work the 8th, and then back to work the 12th... have 4 days to find a new place to stay at that time..
Well now i'm off to keep studying, if i get enough done, and feel alright tomorrow i will go to the Nottinghill Carnival.. which would be really nice, to see some old friends, which i hardly ever see..
peace out for now..
HA I'M SO HOT IN MY HOME CLOTHES.. :P
Fucking 5 am!!!!
My phone started going around that time, and people, with people i mean MAKSIM started calling, coz people been out n were standing drunk outside my house!! don't people have any respect whats however?
Never mind, before i went to bed, me n Niko went for a 3 hour walk through town n the marina n every where.. passed by Maks where he was working as well..
How cute are we.. haha me in my sweats of course.. Don't know if Niko is the right person to go on walks with.. He just wants to eat all the time, we even had to stop at a kebab place for him to get some food, and because he is so well mannered or whatever u wanna call it, he tried to force me to eat to coz he didn't wanna eat alone.. Guess what a healthy good walk.. Maybe I will start walking alone again, but than I would have to do it earlier, because can't really do that alone in the middle of the night.. We'll see..
sugar or no sugar is the question..?!
Last night was long, i was meant to go to bed early, but some friends stopped by for dinner and sheesha, and it was such a nice evening.. like back in the days.. Too bad maks couldnt stay longer but he had to go to work.. I made so much food, there is so much left for today, which is good coz i'll be studying all day so i don't need to cook :) already had loads of chocolate, i don't know what is wrong with me, normally i try to avoid sugar, but i've just be craving it so much lately.. But whatever i guess it will go over soon.. I have my periods of time where i crave weird stuff.. lol i guess now u think chocolate isn't weird, but i don't really eat chocolate a lot, and i avoid most types of sugar normally :p At least i'm not craving anything disgusting, i've had times when i couldn't get enough of for example tuna, and i hate tuna, it's pretty much the most disgusting thing i know.. But whatever i'm gonna zip on my tea (without sugar :p) and study now..
too much food..
Chilling with them peeps.. had too much food... made schnitzel with mashed potatos, n had loads of sweets from Ikea for starter and dessert.. yummy n sheesha.. Can't move too much food..
Sitting n listening to music now, n smoking sheesha..
Probs gonna go to bed in a moment..
Finally thursday..
Yesterday was long, was meant to be in the library all day studying, but then Niko called n asked if i could go to the hospital with him to get the thingy he has on his broken arm removed.. Actually don't know what it's called..
Even though there was some waiting involved it was actually fun, because the doctor was so funny, he was joking with niko that his hand had not healed in the right way and it would have to be re-broken to get fixed.. Lol we actually both believed him..
After we went for dinner in Ikea, which is always nice coz it makes me feel like home, and we got loads of sweets, bilar, cola snoren and of course loads of Daim :) For the cinema, went to see Skott Pilgrim vs the world, which in a weird way is a really funny movie. I'm not sure if a lot of people will like it. But i really did. Felt like a metaphor for real life things.. And of course Michael Cera is always amazing! Felt sick after the cinema though coz of all the candy i had, and of course i had loads of Daim for breakfast today, so feeling a bit sick now too.. That the consequence of eating to much chocolate i can live with it, and keep eating.. have cookies with me to the library too.. It amazes me that i am as skinny as i am.. I really should be fat :p
Now i really have to start studying..
peace people..
Oh yea by the way, the machine that the doctor used to cut the thing of was real scary, i didn't get how he could do that without cutting in to his arm, and to prov that it was impossible he tried to cut my arm.. Scared the hell out of me, but he proved his point, the machine was safe..
haha
Lol today someone from a letting agency tried to get in to the flat again without letting us know.. but we had been smart enough to put the extra lock on.. Which we have been doing lately coz people keep walking in and out of the flat. Do you have any idea how uncomfortable it is when u just jumped out of the shower and stand there half naked coz u think you are alone in the flat, and all of a sudden people stand in front of you, coz they are having a viewing of our flat??!! This type of thing has beenhappening quite often to me and Johanna lately. But we have started to lock the door with an extra lock when we are hoime from the inside.. Still when no one is at home, god only knows how many people walk around in the flat.. I really don't like it, and we told the landlord, who said that it shouldn't be happening, but it still is.. So nothing really we can do. But it was a nice feeling this morning when we heard someone put the key in the lock, and trying to open the door, and it was locked :p I hope they learned a lesson and will start telling us before a viewing..
Now i'm off to a bit more studying..
peace out
Nail-pollish on my white jeans..
Y can't i possibly paint my nails without getting it all over everything? everyone else seems to be capable of doing it?? even guys paint nails better than i do!! fuck it, at least my nails look decent.. i sort the jeans out later.. not meant to be wearing white anyways, i would just spill stuff on myself anyways!!
OMG
I MUST BE THE DUMMEST PERSON ALIVE! BECAUSE MY COMPUTER REMEMBERS ALL THE PASWORDS, I ACTUALLY DON'T KNOW ANY OF THEM.. MY BLOG FUCKED UP, MY EMAIL, MY OTHER EMAIL, MY SURVEYS EVERYTHING JUST GOT FUCKED UP WHEN MY COMPUTER MESSED UP!! DON'T EVER TRUST A MACHINE TOO MUCH! With that said, i must admit that even if my computer isnt perfect he is way smarter than me.. And thank god i didn't fuck my surveys up totally they are still there, i only thought i had deleted them, which would have been quiet awkward now that i need to put them in my dissertation..
Back in the library..
As usual guess where i'm hiding, in one of them beautiful lil study carrels.. Today i will get a lot done.. i have a feeling.. I GOT A FEEELING TONIGHT IS A GOOD NIGHT... -> I GOOOOT A FEEEELIIINNG TODAY WILL BE A GOOD DAY!!!! (touch wood, i bet i will get run over by a truck now..)
I want more sleep..
Even though i didn't manage to sleep a lot, like a lot less than usual, i feel much more awake than normally. Normally i wouldn't have been able to get up when the alarm went off at 8.. which i could do today :) Proud of myself. This must sound so strange for anyone that knows me, coz everyone knows i'm a morning person, i'm always the first up, doing stuff waking everyone else up.. Usually in a good mood in the mornings too.. Maybe soon that will be me again, or maybe if people around me are lucky i won't ever go back to that again :p
I'm off to the doctors now.. peace out
Late night walk..
Went for a walk with Niko, were gone for like almost two hours, so cozy went all the way through the cemetery, the park, then down all of Hill lane, basically we went really far, had a few stops and sat on park benches to discuss important things in life like why girls in england go crazy for football players and other unimportant things.. all in all was a good walk.. But when i was pressing the code to get back into my building this homeless lady asked if she could sleep in the stair ways.. The thing is, I recognise the woman, i've seen her on drugs arguing with a man outside my house, she was really scary. So i didn't let her in.. But at the same time, i feel so bad, if i was a good catholic i shouldn't have turned her down. It's not really warm to sleep outside.. i feel so bad.. But i cannot really let someone sleep in the building that i know for sure is on drugs, not with the amount of families living here with babies and small children.. I guess which ever i would have done would have been wrong, i just feel really bad for her at the moment..
now im going to bed.. shit, i have a bed, she has to sleep somewhere outside on the floor in the cold.. :(
peace out
ehrm..
Could this be more embarrassing.. Retakes are on at Solent at the moment, and all the people who been too cool to study the rest of the year are around at the moment for their retakes.. Which means all the hot guys are running around panicking in uni at the moment.. usually i would be very grateful, but at the moment it's just embarrassing, have a guy sitting opposite of me who keeps staring at me, now i don't know if he does this because he knows me, or because he is just weird.. I have this thing that i never recognise people, so when people stare at me, they quite often know me, i just don't remember ever having met them.. yea yea i know, sort of rude of me, but could this guy please stop staring or i will ask him what his problem is..!!! Or not.. would never be that rude.. :(
Miss the Karen Millen girls..
Went to the store today to check if the times which i have to work when i come back have been scheduled yet, which they hadn't. Made me realise just how much i miss the girls from work, and all the nice customers.. I know i know, people don't want to work or whatever, but i'm lucky enough to have found a job which i really enjoy, and i work with people i really like.. So now i miss them :(
Monday morning ha?!
Woke up early came to the library, and guess what, even though i had booked a room, somehow Jojo forgot to book one, so i gave my room to her,.. Now i'm sitting in the normal library with people building outside, like seriously?!!! I need so study and they are BUILDING something outside, or god knows what they are doing, but they are being really loud. On top of that instead of starting to work, i try to make some changes on my blog, and as usual i wonder, am i a bit stupid or something, coz everyone else seems to be able to manage to change the design of their blogs, why is it that i find it soooo hard?!!! Don't know, i just pretend like everyone else gets help, which makes me feel better coz i'm trying on my own now.. Well ok, i was gonna get help, and i most likely will get help if this somehow some day will look like something acceptable.. But right now i don't care enough, need to study instead..
Poor guy in front of me, the sound of the builders seem to drive him crazy.. Well i guess they do that with everyone, but at least i got my ipod on, so i don't hear it as bad..
Still sunday..
How come i always miss it when my mum calls me, i don't know how i do it, but if i leave my phone for a second on silent or in another room, i have a missed call from her. If i am on skype and leave the room for a second i have 10 missed calls. Ok now it sounds like my mum is stalking me, which she isn't, she calls me regularly like any mum would, but i somehow always seem to miss her calls. Which makes her think that i'm avoiding her because i'm either ill or up to something bad.
But for real mum if u read this, i don't mean to always miss ur calls, i miss u n love u. Just maybe call a bit more often, and at some point i will hear my phone ring, and pick up.. Seriously i'm not being ironic, and i'm not the worst daughter ever.. I just suck at having my phone around me.
And before anyone says anything, this only counts for my mum, because yes, a lot of the times when people call me, i put my phone on silent, because i cannot be bothered to answer. This is mostly because i'm a sleep. Some people always manage to call me when i'm asleep. With this i mean, i have one friend, who no matter when i'm a sleep, if i go to bed early, or try to sleep long, or maybe take a nap, this specific friend always manage that perfect timing to call me right then. And to put my phone on silent doesn't help, coz he will keep calling. This is somehow a hint, if i don't answer, stop calling me i will call u when i feel like it. But at the same time, thank u for keeping up the stubbornness, because u have forced me out of bed and made me feel better at some points, when it was needed..
Just making dinner for me n Jojo at the moment.. Pasta with chicken n orange sause.. Yummy.. Long time since i actually wanted to eat something. Weird, feels like i'm feeling a bit better today, maybe thats coz i've basically spent the whole week in bed to rest. Or coz I have my old friends back in my life, or maybe because I finally understood some stuff in life.. I just somehow feel better at the moment..
Going to eat properly now, and maybe soon gonna gain the weight i lost again.. well hopefully, so people can stop telling me that i look disgustingly skinny Lol. Ok maybe not Lol, it's actually not funny when people say that to u, but whatever, everyone to their own.. I'm gonna stop caring what other people think about something as unimportant as my weight..
I think the pasta is ready now, so i'm off to my food.. peace out people for tonight coz i need to go to bed like now, so tired, and have to get up early to go to my favorite place the library :)
Sunday with Sly..
Spent the whole day tills now with Sly which is nice, coz i hardly ever see him anymore since he moved to london.. Some people like him, are just people that i hope gonna stay in my life for a long time, coz he is such a good person, he is one of those people where i know he would always be there if something happened..
Can't believe he got me out of the house in the morning to go to the early mass in church, and then we went to have coffee and just sat n talked for a long time. It's nice to have someone who is so wise in my life who can give me advice.. I mean things he tells me actually make sense.. Lol compared to the way i usually think.. So thanks for that Sly..
ps. I know i spelled World wrong.. in my last update, and i'm pretty sure there are more spelling mistakes a bit everywhere, so people chill.. I have accepted the fact that i suck at spelling so should u! :p
OTOW!
OUR TALENT OUR WORL!
OTOW is a brand my friend Sly is designing, and he is super talented.. he just started but i already got a super cute background for my bb..
I hope he will get somewhere with it, coz he is really talented!! :)
