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By the way, all u Swedes out there, don't forget to vote!!!! only a couple of days left, n now it's more important than ever before to do this..!!!
Back for real..
2Been really naughty with updating my blog.. gonna be better now though, as uni is over and i now only have work to worry about.. And obviously to get a propper job.. but that will probably take years to find one.. looks like no-one is finding a job.. sort of makes me nervous, but don't have a choice but to try to find a job.. :s
Here come some pics from the past couple of days..
me and the girls in ocean village :)
Nelly n Jojo big ass smiling!! :p
me running around like a weirdo on the buggery bridge.. yes we have a bridge called buggery bridge in southampton.. for those who don't know what that means.. this bridge has been named because the rumour has it that guys have been buggered here.. which means they basically been raped, which i know isn't funny, but the amount of times i walked here in short skirts in the middle of the night to pick the girls up, n always thinking i was safe coz i'm a girl, now that funny how naive i used to be when i just moved to soton.. i guess every year a bit of this naivety disappears... Not the same person anymore than i was when i came here, but probably still would walk these weird places to pick people up so they don't have to walk alone.. yea yea i know it aint safe, whatever..
Back to life..
I'm officially back to life, handed in the last bits of my dissertation today, and been back at work already too.. Tomorrow gonna be working at going out :) So happy this is finally done, so now i can only hope that i did alright in my dissertation, but won't worry about that now..
Can't believe i didn't go out last night.. Everyone came out, n i fell asleep.. guess i needed it, but still feel so bad, coz some people came to celebrate with me, n i never showed up.. Feel like a bitch, but can't do anything about it now.. Will hopefully make it tomorrow when everyone is going again.. If not.. sorry guys :p
Back to life..
Pretty much done, need to burn an interview n hand the dissertation in tomorrow.. :) still got to clean the whole flat tomorrow.. but feeling like celebration is needed!! Gonna jump in the shower n chill n get ready..
haha just got scared by my own computer, was making weird noises when i was typing.. but it was just a song that went on :p
Finally!
The day has finally come in which i will hand in my dissertation.. just gonna check if my tutor is there for some final advice, and then i will do it.. feels good, but sort of a bit scared that i might have missed out something important.. n i always suck at analysing things, so hope my analysis aint too bad.. which it might be :(
After i have to go to my old place and help Jojo clean everything up, n then we can go out n celebrate that we are done with uni!!!! Forever hopefully.. i'm done with this, there won't be any further studies for my part, thats for sure!!
today song..
Been listening to fugees music all day studying.. By fugees i mean, their music including any Nas, Lauryn
n Hill n Wyclef.. Love all of them both together n alone..
todays song is an oldy..
Nas & Lauryn Hill - If i rulled the World
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D2vv_lmeP8E
See the light in the tunnel..
Can't believe i'm almost done, just need to write my conclusion today and sort the appendices out, and the whole dissertation is finished.. Can't believe it's actually pretty much done. That i managed to do this even though i been ill is a wonder.. Actually a lil bit proud :)
LOVE THIS!!
Thanks Maks to for introducing me to this song.. listening this non stop love it.. just such a feel good song in a weird way..
Cee Lo Green - Fuck You!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CAV0XrbEwNc
back to working..
Went to church with the french, can't say it often enough but i really love going.. makes me so calm.. i think everyone should go.. Not telling people to go to a catholic church, but it's nice to have some peaceful place to go to.. I guess people have different places which mean something to them.. Had tea after with one of my new house mates n the french with the weirdest movie ever on in the background.. Something with robert downey jr n jamie foxx as some sort of paranoide or mentally ill musician.. didn't really get it, i guess i'm not deep enough.. Lol na, i need to stop offending myself.. i am deep, sometimes.. lol, i do read intelligent books n stuff.. just when it comes to movies, i like light n funny more than anything else.. well back to my studies now, wanna finish this tonight.. n the guys said they might pop in later as well.. i don't understand why people don't understand that i have work i need to do.. People just come by all the time.. ok i get it, everyone is moving soon, n i won't see people anymore.. but this dissertation is more important :(
OMG
can't believe how bored i am.. analysis is going well.. but my neck is starting to hurt, coz i'm sitting in an impossible position on my bed with my computer on my knees, n my head leaning on my pillows/wall studying.. Will defo need a massage today.. Or i will walk around with my head tilling to one side for the next couple of days.. Anyways Happy Jo is coming in a bit and will hopefully brighten up my day :)
still writing..
Just want it to be 7 now so i can go to church.. I know i'm a weirdo.. fully aware of it.. Just found n old picture of me getting ready to go out..
Still in my old room, i look so mad.. I somehow always look either mad or sad.. I get why people get confused over me.. I need to start smiling more.. Guess it would look weird though if i was smiling like a freakshow whilst getting ready to go out.. Oh by the way, yea i use this to avoid studying, i need to get a hobby.. Wanna start horse riding again, been missing it so much lately it's weird..
OMG i really look like i wanna kill someone on this pic.. lol
Sunday funday..
Been shitty weather all morning but now it looks like its brightening up a bit.. Sun is coming out, maybe should have waited a bit this morning, but instead i walked in the rain to my old flat to get the toaster... need my toasted bread in the morning.. just having my coffee now, and even though i slept like a baby, i'm still so tired.. Gonna be staying at home all day and hopefully finish my stupid dissertation, really getting tired of it.. i just wanna be done with it now..
Elbowed in the face..
Did i mention that the guys kidnapped me n Jojo from mede house yesterday! Not joking, after dinner, they literally forced us out of the house carrying us out over their shoulders, Maks took Jojo n Niko carried me out knocking my head against pretty much every wall which was anywhere close to us. They wanted us to walk to the other side of town to go meet Happy Jo (Johannes got the name coz he is so happy all the time, which just makes other people around him happy too.. love being around him..). Even though we were not happy at all first, specially coz i wasn't allowed to bring my phone, or a cardigan and it was cold in just sweats n a top.. It was worth seeing Happy Jo, it was even worth maks telling my old neighbours i forgot to take my anti depressants, and when he offered mine and Jojo's services when a homeless guy asked us to buy the big issue.. Funny jokes ha, or not?! Not bad enough to joke with a homeless guy, but to offer our "services" instead of giving him money was slightly embarrassing.. I probably would have gotten really mad, if the homeless guy hadn't been laughing himself, telling maks he has a girlfriend..
A minute later Niko elbowed me in the face so my lip started bleeding.. Guess I had an eventful first day at the new place yesterday..
Really need to get back to my work now..
By the way i opened a pack of half coated chocolate cookies, the ones i'm always eating, and the smell is almost stronger than the sweaty smell of the woman next to me.. Only thing that might help more would be room spray.. Might pop in to tescos on my lunch break n get some.. Might offend her though?!
First night at the new house..
Was alright, couldn't sleep and was on the phone most of the night it felt like coz some people were stuck n had to stay awake.. Lol ok maybe not most of the night coz i kept falling asleep, but i gave my best, and i think i should get some credit for it.. Besides that, night was alright, bed is pretty comfy, and no nightmares in the first night, good sign isnt it? Someone told me that what you dream the first night in a new place will come true, and even though i believe in all sorts of weird things, last nights dreams were just a bit too weird to come true.. at least i hope so..
Am sitting in the library at the moment, as usual in one of the study carrels, and as usual i have the luck to be stuck between a woman (first thought it was a man) which i doubt has showered in the past year, because the smell is extreme, and a man who keeps burping.. How do i do this? How do i always manage to be surrounded by weirdos.. I mean i know i a pretty big weirdo myself, and maybe i attract them i don't know.. Just at the moment i wish i was somewhere else.. Have to escape to the bathroom every 10 minutes to breath coz it smells so badly here..
Need to keep writing now though because i have to sort some stuff out in the new house later, need to get new lamp for the bathroom, and some other essentials.. OMG he just Burped again, not even them silent ones, this man is burping so loud i believe they must hear him on the second floor.. I wonder if some people don't learn manners at home.. Lol just remembered my dear beloved Nells who is known for burping pretty much all the time, how lady-like.. Lol love u for making me laugh so many times because of ur manners Nells :) Gonna miss her when she moves back to Sweden, and don't even know how i will survive without Jojo.. Still i got the boyz i guess.. It will be a sad time without them two.. Might have to consider getting some new girlfriends..? or ehrm maybe not, might be enough with the guys.. Can use them as girlfriends, they already used to it, talking girl stuff and all :) LOVE U BOYZ!! :)
Still moving day..
Moved pretty much everything in my room.. new room is a lot better, which feels good.. The guys seem pretty nice so far too.. Whilst moving the cab driver tried to rip us off, wanted us to pay 35 pounds to get form my old house which is literally 5 minutes away to the new house... ehrm no, so the day started with a "discussion" between maks n a cab driver, and me trying to give him an address which was totally wrong, coz i somehow didnt remember the right address.. Lol very typically me..
Spend the rest of the day unpacking and with Happy-Jo who is here from Germany at the moment, he brought loads of german sweets which he will give me tomorrow :) LOVE U for that Joe!!
Just waiting for Ellies now, just gonna have some tea, and then bed time.. I know its early, but been moving all day and it really takes energy..
peace out..
Moving day has come..
Been up since before 7.. couldn't sleep n been having the worst dreams ever.. weird dreams.. Guess its the stress or whatever, i mean i usually have nightmares, but they are usually always the same, now i'm getting these sort of weird dreams.. Well whatever, don't have the time really to be on here at the moment, gonna finish packing my bed stuff, n than run to the library quickly to change my booking for my room from the morning to the afternoon..
last night in mede house..
Can't believe i am moving tomorrow morning, pretty much all my stuff is packed.. sitting in Jojos room at the moment, depressed.. really don't wanna move. Love it here.. Might just because i generally hate moving... Guess i've done it too many times. But i just have a bad feeling about this, maybe coz i for the first time move in with people i don't know, or because it's all guys. Hope it will turn out alright..
Anyways, have had an awful day, could be coz i have been packing mostly, but also been to the hairdresser, who absolutely ruined my hair.. for all the swedish people reading this.. I have a "hockey frilla" now.. Not even joking.. Whilst she was cutting my hair, Jojo told me it looked like one, so it's not just me, and when the hair dresser asked if i liked it i was just so scared she would cut more off, i told her i loved it, and ran out.. Only fun thing that happened was that the guy behind the till at the hairdressers told Jojo that she should do something about her curls..haha she got like the nicest hair ever.. But the guy told her he could work miracles with her hair, i think he was trying to hit on her, but he was more offending her hair, which was pretty funny, coz that girl got some attitude, and u don't wanna mess with her :p
Now i'm gonna try to write a lil more on my analysis, coz tomorrow gonna be a waste on moving :( can't believe this.. No year has ever passed so quickly, loved this year, i learned who my true friends are, i learned who will be there in hard times.. (L) u girlz n boyz. All the late night boring ass movie watching with Tam which worked better than any sleeping pill to put me asleep, the sheesha nights with the boyz, the listening to old school music nights.. All the randomness with Jojo and the boyz, all the late night calls and door knocks from hungry people.. Gonna miss it all.. But hopefully even though Jojo n Nelly gonna be gone, i still have the boyz.. N hopefully the new housemates gonna turn out as good as all the ones i have had in the past. Because i think i've been the luckiest person ever with all my previous housemates.. Touch wood..
Sitting on Jojos bed at the moment, listening to old school music n trying to study, but just really down coz i don't want this year to be finished.. Feels so sad.. :(
Now i'm off to write some more, and then time for beddy..
peace out
x
Todays song..
The Script - We cry
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ScJezHweiYc
Is todays song, it was on, on the radio in the doctors waiting room.. made me want to listen to the radio more often, i don't know which radio channel it was.. but only good songs came on..
:)
Looks like i might have found myself somewhere to live.. I guess it was about time, rent is ok, and the guys i will live with seem pretty nice too.. And the house is almost on swedish standard, at least what it looks like.. So now i just need to sign n i can move in on friday.. hopefully everything will go just fine, and i won't experience what it feels like to be homeless.. Kind of nervous though, never lived with only guys, even though i get along better with guys than with girls, this will be on a whole new level.. But i guess at some point this was bound to happen..
Is it really so hard..??
Y are some people being so ridiculously difficult? is it so hard? Y can't people just make life as easy as it is.. Because seriously most problems and issues are just nothing, but some crap that some bored person came up with.. I can't be bothered with anything like that.. If someone got an issue, feel free to have one, but don't get me involved, i like to keep my life simple, no issues, no dramas, no nothing that could give me a wrinkle or headache.. Life could be so easy, if some people would just relax and take a breath..
