nanadine

Been reading in the news that someone is walking the streets in Malmö shooting foreigners.. What's wrong with people now a days?!? seriously?! I hope they find this person soon.. i know it's bad to shoot people whats however.. but to walk around in the dark for more than a year and shoot foreigners, and that in one of the cities in sweden with the most foreigners.. can't he just move somewhere where there are no foreigners if he hates them enough? that's what i don't get with hate.. If i don't like something, i sort myself out, if you have a problem, why become agressive straight away, can't you just i don't know, do something about it, as for example move somewhere where your issue doesn't exist.. imagine how amazing that would be, in every country there should be a city where all the rasists can live, in that way they could all stick together hating the outside, and i would assume that this would make them understand that it would suck to live somewhere where there are no different cultures mixed together, because that makes life today so nice. Every different culture gives something special to society, and it would seriously suck to not have this mix anymore..

But enough of depressing stuff.. went out last night, just for a couple of drinks. First time in god knows how long, was really nice, a new bar opened, so went there with some friends, and even though i was dead tired it was really fun, or maybe it was mostly fun coz i had some really strong drinks before i left the house :)

this is how much niko liked it to get a kiss from me :p

Now i'm off to bed, have a long day at work tomorrow, and than still have to have enough energy to go out =)

This Journalism student is saying that "everyone needs a man like you Putin"

This one is asking when Michail Chodorkowsk will be released from prison.

I wonder which one off these two will make the better journalist..

Been back for two days, had the longest weekend ever, i guess that's what it's like if you're going home for an occasion as depressing as a funeral.. But still happy I saw my family..

Am wondering why every time when things are calming down, and trouble and drama are leaving my life, something new is coming in and disturbing the peace.. Do people realize when your life is drama free and make an effort to put some drama in it? I don't know.. But it aint working this time... Can't really be bothered, i guess that's the best way to get rid of drama anyways, to just not bother.. :) Maybe that's something more people should try.. just a suggestion..

Can't believe i had a specialist appointment for my head, which i had to wait for three months to get, and the funeral is on the same day, so just had to call them and cancel it.. So now will have to wait for three months again, what a joke the medical system is here.. Why does someone have to wait that long to get an appointment..? I hate having these headaches and i hate having to go to the doctors all the time n having to take loads of meds.. I wish i could just take a  break from my head every now and then.. But i guess people have to live with what god gave them, and other people have a lot bigger issues to live with than headaches.. So now i will stop complaining and finish packing..

Maybe it's just that i'm listening to lyfe jennings that makes me a bit depressed.. maybe should listen to something else..

Now i'm off to take a bath, just need to call my dad before, coz it's his 58th bday, and i doubt he understands how to open messages and therefore doesn't know i sent him text telling him to come on skype.. What can i say, technology is hard for some people who are stuck in the past century.. ( love u dad =) )

OMG how could i possibly be this tired.. just wanna go n sleep, might just take a shower, would take too much energy to actually take a bath, and i would probably fall asleep anyways..

And i don't have any free minutes on my phone till the 10th.. how will i survive 12 days without being on the phone every night till i fall asleep.. Fuck this, my phone bill is high enough already :( Don't know how i can waste 700 minutes in 2 weeks, but i guess it isn't that hard, because thats what i do all the time.. Wonder why it's so damn hard to not be on the phone all day long, what did people used to do all day long, i guess talk to the people around them instead of being on the phone all the time.. But it's hard if ur close people are so far away.. Wish some people would live a bit closer and i could see them a bit more often.. The worst thing is that after a while when you never see people, you spend less and less time talking to each other, and after a while you never speak. Friendships die out so easily it's unbelievable.. I know, because it happens all the time. I don't know how many times i've had friends who i thought i'de be friends with forever, and shortly after you hardly speak to them no more. And than there are people who even though you only fight and always are mad at each other, they will stay in your life for real.. Guess the way to see if a friendship is for real is to see the length of time you've been friends. Which doesn't look good for me, coz i don't have a lot of close people who i stay friends with.. This makes me sound like a bitch Lol But people just lose contact, there is no need to force friendships..

OMG here i'm trying to be all deep and all, am just being super tired and hungry.. so i'm off to shower and then bed time :) gonna have an early one tonight..

peace out

Anyways found some pictures from the other day, spend all day with Jay, it was so nice weather.. Probably the last nice day for this year.. :(

Oh my god, u can really tell how pale i am, i dont think i have ever been this pale ever.. but not really been out in the sun this summer... but you can really tell how pale i am compared to jay..

I wish i would tan like him, but i guess not everyone can have that skin tone :(

Sitting and watching Hancock at the moment, guess i should pack, but i don't really know what to pack, and i still have two days, probably will pack the same day as my flight goes, aint very good at preparing these sort of things..

It's weird to know i will never have coffee with him again, or go to our favorite greek restaurant or have ice cream at the italian place in the neighbourhood.. Never go to museums again.. He was always so proud of our german roots and trying to show us that it aint a bad thing to be german.. Never again will we go to café reichards again for our favorite cakes and coffee..

It will be weird to go home to germany and not be able to see him, not be able to go for a walk with grandmas dog to see him, and try to convince him that feeding a heavily overweight dog aint the way to go..

I will miss all his long stories about people i never met, stories that he could describe in such detail like no one else ever could..

I will miss how he used to always joke around with everyone and flirt with all waitresses..

I will miss how even though he had such strickt views and ideas about everything, always made an exception for me. How he always got me coke even though he hated how americanized society was, and boycotted american products.. He always had coke at his for me.. And he used to always go to the kiosk next door to get me liquorice when i came.

Or how he even though being so strickt with other people, gave me a key to his house so i could sleep there after a night out partying so i wouldn't have to walk all the way from the tube to my grandmas..

It is weird, i have never had anyone i ever been close to, or loved die before.. I guess the only thing you can do is put up and pretend like nothing happened until this feeling goes away..

I wish i could be with my family now more than ever before, wish i could be there for my mum, can't even imagine how hard this must be on her..

Wish i could be there for my brother, who found out that Opa died on the same day as his sons first birthday.

Something that should have been such a happy day for the whole family.. But at least now there is no more pain and suffering for you.

Rest in peace Opa, you will be greatly missed by many but especially your family.

Just spoke to my mum, she was meant to come for 2 days mid october, but looks like that won't happen.. Feels a bit stupid to pay that much money just to come see me for two days.. So i told her i could wait a bit longer till i see her..  And the rest of the family i don't even know the next time I will see anyone from my family again the next time.. Not for christmas for sure, gonna stay here and work.. Maybe next year..

Chilling in front of the tv at the moment, should really be writing my covering letter, but don't really know what they are meant to look like.. So gonna pop by university on my way to work and grab an example one, so i can have a look through it and write it tonight.. I really don't wanna make any mistakes in this as it could decide whether i get a job or not.. I hate that it is so difficult to find a job, i mean i've studied, i have a degree, i have loads of experience, but it probably still will be so hard to get a job :(

So instead of working on my covering letter i'm watching veronica mars.. seriously could a tv series be more boring.. very doubtful.. but i guess i'm just to scared to fail in finding a job to actually work on finding one.. :(

Been having some really nice days this week, an old friend has come to town to visit for the couple of days which i'm not working.. It's weird how you sometimes don't see someone in ages, but than when you see each other it's like you never stopped being friends, makes me wish i would work harder on a lot of friendships, and maybe skip some others.. But whatever I guess I make choices of who my friends are along the way..

Here is a pic from last thursday which I just found coz Jojo put it on Facebook :)

Love Jojo's hair, and Nelly looks soooo drunk Lol but still no comment on me, don't know why i am laying down there :p

I just ran panicking threw the house looking for my camera which i thought i had lost last night, but i somehow in my drunken stage put it in the medicine box.. ehrm, yea i don't know why i put it there, but i guess drunken people don't make sense all the time..?

Here are some pics from last night :)

Me and my new house mate Mandie.. We had such a good night last night, really happy all the people i live with seem to be so nice :)

Yes one can def see which one was the most drunk :p

Been busy all day today, went to town to have coffee with a friend, than we went toys'r'us to find a bday present for my lil nephew, who will be one year the 25th of september.. Can't believe he is already one year, doesn't feel like that, but i guess that's coz i've hardly ever seen him.. :( Now just need to find a present for my dad, and I can send it all off to Sweden..

The rest of the day i been helping Jojo moving her stuff, n cooking for my new housemates.. Made Chicken Calcutta.. My favorite disch.. Yummyy.. Wish it would taste as good as when my mummy makes it, well one day it will..!! :)

Baking a Kladdkaka (sticky chocolate cake for all the non-swedes here..) perfect goodnight food :)